Friday, April 19, 2013

The Big Bang Story

All I remember that day prior to the incident was reciting verses from Surah An-Naba whilst driving on Pascoe Vale Road. I don’t even recall going up the ramp onto Camp Rd and merging into the other lane. Sometimes when we are so familiar with a particular route or routine, we don’t give our full attention to what we are doing. Just like our 5 daily prayers. May Allah (swt) help us. What I do remember though is the feeling of how beautiful it is to recite the words of Allah (swt). 

Then all of a sudden, out of nowhere I felt as though a huge truck had rammed into me from behind. In my head, I thought “Where did the truck come from? I didn’t see it coming!” That’s all it takes. One second. One second for someone to run into you and change your life forever. One second for your life to be taken away. Except that we survived the crash. Alhamdulilahi rabbil alamin. Praise be to Allah, my Protecting Friend. Allahu Akbar. Without Him, we wouldn’t have made it alive and without any major injuries. The first thing I said right when I felt the crash was “Astarghfirullah”. Had I not survived, that would have been my last word. Alhamdulilah for that. May Allah (swt) always make our tongues moist with His remembrance and allow us to die in a state that will be pleasing to Him. Ameen. 

You know as a parent, especially a mother, you’re always thinking about your children. They come first before anything else. It’s our natural instinct instilled by Allah (swt), a gift and a mercy from Him. But at that moment right after we’ve been hit, I was so out of it that my children weren’t even on my mind. It all happened in a blink of an eye so it took me a few seconds to realize what had happened and to get myself together. I, literally, had to get myself together. My headscarf had totally come off my head (and I was wearing the long khimar that goes up to my knees so you can imagine how hard the hit must’ve been for that to happen). Looking back, that few seconds reminded me of the Day of Judgement when it’s just you and your Creator. Not your mother, father, sister, daughter, son, husband or friends are going to help you no matter how close you are to them in this life. That’s why it’s important not to get too attached to the ones we love and to always remember that everything in this world belongs to Allah and will one day return to Him. In the end, it’s only you and your deeds that will save you. 

After the harsh reality had dawned on me that I had just been badly hit, I quickly attended to my crying babies who were still strapped in their car seats, alhamdulilah. I felt like I was in a scene from a movie with all that rush and anxiety trying to get my son out of the car as his door was jammed and the petrol was leaking. Alhamdulilah I got Yunus first as he was right behind me and a man went inside from another door to get my other son, Ilyas. Such a huge relief to know that your children survived uninjured. And I only have You to thank. 

He is indeed the Most Merciful. In a Hadith Qudsi, Allah says. ''I am as My servant thinks I am. I am with him when he makes mention of Me. If he makes mention of Me to himself, I make mention of him to Myself; and if he makes mention of Me in an assembly, I make mention of him in an assembly better than it. And if he draws near to Me an arm's length, I draw near to him a fathom's length. And if he comes to Me walking, I go to him at speed.'' (Bukhari)

“Umm Salamah (May Allah be pleased with her) reported: I heard the Messenger of Allah (Allah bless him and grant him peace) saying, “When a person suffers from a calamity and utters: `Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi raji`un. Allahumma ujurni fi musibati, wakhluf li khairan minha (We belong to Allah and to Him we shall return. O Allah! Compensate me in my affliction, recompense my loss and give me something better in exchange for it), then Allah surely compensates him with reward and better substitute.” Umm Salamah (ra) said: When Abu Salamah (ra) died, I repeated the same supplication as the Messenger of Allah (Allah bless him and grant him peace) had commanded me (to do), so Allah bestowed upon me a better substitute than him [Muslim].