Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Dawah for life.

You see, it's Winter time down under. It's getting colder and colder by day (although our winter weather is probably nothing compared to the US or Canada). As we (my Dad and I) were driving to pick my sis up for lunch yesterday, I noticed that the windows started fogging up in the car and so I decided to do some Dawah. This was what I wrote on the windscreen so that others could see:

"Peace be upon Muhammad"

and

"Smiling is Charity"

I've realised that we make dawah in everything that we do. Especially for us women, the Hijab that we wear speaks on behalf of our Deen. We are immediately recognised as Muslims the moment we step outside with a  scarf over our heads. So how are you portraying your religion? How is your character? How is your speech? How is your body language? Do you smile just for the sake of smiling? Or is it your dull, lifeless face that people see? When was the last time you said "Assalamu 'alaikum" to a stranger? When you walk past another Muslim woman, do you pass by her as though she is just another human being or do you acknowledge that she is your Sister in Islam? I can't find the hadith but I think the Prophet (saw) said something along these lines: "There will come a time when Muslims will say Salam only to those whom they know." Be not people like this. It makes me so sad when I see so many Muslim women in the West walk around with sour faces. They're just so unfriendly, it puts you off. You get intimidated by them. Why then do you think the West have such negative conceptions about Muslims? 

We learn off each other. We imitate others who are closer to Allah than us. Be the best so that others follow your footsteps. Associate yourself with good Muslims who will help you become a better person, those who have good manners. That will definitely have a positive effect on you. You'll find that you will adopt their traits and habits. A friend of mine carries the pocket Quran with her everywhere she goes. I would always see her reading it. Because I admired her for that, I decided to get one for myself too. I feel like people waste too much time, especially waiting time. So why not get yourself a pocket Quran and read it when you're on the tram or when you're waiting somewhere while everyone else is daydreaming and looking out the window. Time is so precious. On the Day of Judgement, the only thing the people of Paradise will regret is the time they have spent not thinking of Allah. (Read/heard this somewhere...I just can't find the source.) There's so much reward in everything we do, why don't we do them?

*Sorry if I sound harsh. I'm really a nice person. *smileee* I met a fellow blogger over the weekend. Brave Chickens, back me up here! 

Saturday, June 19, 2010

The D word.

Nobody likes it.

Death? Yes.
Divorce? Oh yeah.

Divorce. I hate that word. I hate everything that's associated with it. I was talking about it with my sister today in the ride home. She and her hubby told me to find the right one to settle down with. The thing is, how am I ever supposed to know who is THE ONE? Only Allah knows. I can only try my best. Just thinking about finding a life partner scares me. I'm scared because I may never experience falling in love again. Falling in love and knowing that your future is secured. It made me even more upset because I kept thinking about him. It's been more than a year since I've left him, for the sake of Allah. and Alhamdulilah I thank Allah for not letting me bump into him on the streets. God knows I'd just drop down and cry.

Back when we were together, he made me feel as though I was the one for him. He would always tell me how much he loved me and that no one else would love me as much as he did. I really felt it, then. I would always remember the conversation we had just before it ended. For him, I was the main priority in his life but he wasn't mine. Because if he was, I wouldn't even think of breaking up with him. When he said that I loved God more than him, I would always object (I wasn't really practicing then). The reason I ended it was because I realised my duty as a Muslim, and I knew being with him wasn't right. I knew I meant the world to him. We talked about getting married, having children and growing old together. I thought that was love. He knew for himself that I was truly the only one for him. He'd even tell me that he'd never cheat on me and that if I chose him, I can be sure he'd be faithful to me. I believed him. However, I broke it off because no matter how much he says we'll be together forever, no matter how much he says he loves me, deep down I always knew that I simply couldn't trust him. Him being a human being. But I could trust Allah. So I put my trust in Allah (subhanahu wa ta'ala) and know that He has something even better planned for me. I'm just afraid of what it'll be.

So this is why I'm scared. What if I'll never find someone who'll love me more than he did? I'm a hopeless romantic. I'm the type of person who only wants to marry once. Only wants to fall in love once. I've always thought that I'd meet a guy, and he'll be it. But then I had my heart broken. I just don't want it broken again. Having a broken heart, sucks.

But...

“God is with the broken-hearted. When your heart breaks, it’s a good thing – the breaking of the heart is what opens it up to the light of Allah. The dunya is designed to break your heart, to crush it.” - Shaykh Hamza Yusuf

If I trust Allah, I needn't worry. If I trust Allah, I should be patient. If I trust Allah, I should know that he will provide for me. And only Allah knows best.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Labbaik Allah humma labbaik - Here I am O Lord!

Yes, I is back.

Finished all my assignments for the Semester, alhamdulilah. I'll have approximately 6 weeks holidays. Yahoo! But I plan to make the most of every single day inshaAllah. I want to keep myself busy so that I can look back and think "Wow, I have done a lot over the holidays! Time well spent". Right now as you can see, I'm in the process of re-doing my layout. Yes, I know. The comment section is gone. But not forever inshaAllah. I will try and fix that up when I have time. In the meantime you can say hello on my 'oh, hello' page. For some reason, the layouts I wanted to use didnt seem to work on blogger. And I also accidentally clicked 'revert to classic template' and have been so frustrated ever since because I can't seem to REVERT BACK.

I need some help.
How do I go back to the 'design' template? At the moment, blogger only allows me to do things via html - and I suck at html-ing. As you can tell.
PS: I know, I know...how are you going to help if you can't even comment? So here's what you can do...either leave a note on my comment page, or email me at f.izmanng@gmail.com. JazakAllah Khair. ;)


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This is what's on my mind right now.

Labbaik Allah humma labbaik
Labbaik la sharika laka labbaik
Innal hamda
Wan-ni'mata
Laka walmulk
Laa sharika lah.

O my Lord, here I am at Your service, here I am.
There is no partner with You,
here I am.
Truly the praise
and the provisions are Yours,
and so is the dominion and sovereignty.

There is no partner with You.

SubhanAllah ... it says it all.

I''ve always loved hearing "Labbaik Allah humma labbaik" but never knew the meaning. Have you ever heard something that you could not understand but you know it's heavy with meaning, and the more you say it, the more it touches your heart? (Obviously, I'm not talking about the Quran here). But that's how I've always felt with "Labbaik Allah humma labbaik". I didn't even know that this is recited during Hajj until today. I didn't even know what it meant until today. Oh, how I lack knowledge. Oh, how we lack knowledge.

Just look at the meaning. Look at how powerful it is. Look and ponder over it. Think about why exactly we are here in this dunya.

O my Lord, here I am at Your service.

Are we really at His service?

If we were to meet Allah today, tomorrow,
would we be pleased with ourselves?
would He be pleased with us?

When I saw this video, I couldn't help but think about the sole purpose of our lives.



It's not to get a degree. a double degree. a phD. a Masters. two Masters.
Not to get a the latest ipad and iphone.
Not about owning a fancy car or a house.
Not about buying that really gorgeous handbag you saw that the mall today.
I'm not saying we can't do these things.
Sure, we can.

But do not make it the reason you wake up in the morning.
Do things because you love your Creator.
Do it for the sake of Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala.
And you'll eventually realise that you don't actually need those things.

& also...when I read the comments for the video,
one person said:
"this is a glimps of the day of judgement"

It gave me goosebumps.

So my dear Sisters in Islam,
do not forget why we are here.
Shaytan is constantly bugging us with worldly possessions and desires
that it slips our minds.
A'oozubillah.

This is a reminder for me first.
I hope I've sent the message across.
InshaAllah.