I have been feeling really sad in the past two days or so. & I have been crying. alot. Crying because I'm scared. Crying because I'm lonely. Crying because I'm a sinner. Crying because I'm weak. Crying because I disappointed those whom I love. Crying because I'm not perfect. As much as I want to be the best I can be, I'm never there. I get upset over things I should have done, or could have done...but didn't do.
I feel like everyone has a childhood friend,
I feel like everyone has someone they can depend on,
I feel like everyone has a shoulder to cry on,
Sometimes I think people find it hard to communicate with me,
or maybe I find it hard to relate to them?
Whatever it is, I feel like no one really knows me.
They don't know that deep down,
I have a big heart.
I'm a genuinely nice person.
I like to spoil the people I love.
To be honest, it's rare to find someone like me.
Is this why I'm all alone?
Why dont they notice me?
Why do I feel so invisible?
After all, I'm only human. I have feelings, too. Somebody hug me.
So then, I was so exhausted I took a 30 minute nap.
I woke up feeling so much happier, alhamdulilah.
It's amazing what sleep can do to you. & chocolates. & prayer.
I've got no one to thank,