Sunday, March 21, 2010

i am me.

I'm sorry I'm not perfect. I make mistakes. So do you. But while I'm aware of all the things I've said or done wrong, I'd like to take this opportunity to make sincere apologies to all my fellow brothers and sisters, whether you're on the bloggosphere or in real life. Even though some may not know that I'm expressing my feelings right now, inshaAllah I hope Allah will forgive me for my past, present and future sins. Sometimes I say or do things out of impulse...and because of that action, it makes me regret what I have done and makes me question my personality/self. Why do I do things like that? Is that what makes me so hard to get along with? Or do people not understand me well enough to know that I actually mean well? That I actually love them...? And that I love all my friends and family...? SubhanAllah, it's times like these when I'm in doubt, I just turn to Allah, turn to the Quran. Right then, I feel comforted. I know that I'm not alone. I know that if I'm patient enough, the right friends will come along my way. Friends who will help guide me onto the path of Jannah, friends who help increase my deen, friends who I can trust and love for the sake of Allah. And friends who are always there for me when I need them. I know that if I'm patient enough inshaAllah one day Allah will provide me with a pious husband who will complete half my deen. All I want is just to be a better Muslim, and to please my creator by pleasing my family and my ummah. I know that if I'm patient enough, Allah will provide me with acquaintances who will help me achieve that. My level of deen is obviously completely different to what you may be, you could be much more knowledgeable, or I could be more knowledgeable than you. Allahu Wallam. I dont see myself as any better than you. Neither should you. We should look at our own mistakes before we judge others. We are all students of knowledge...until the day we die.

3 comments:

  1. as-salaam aleikum wa rahmatullah,

    MashaAllah sis.. inshallah Allah forgives your sins and helps you to be patient.

    Inshallah you are always surrounded by good family and friends :)

    and May Allah bring you a pious husband :)

    this is a very nice post sis MashaAllah :)

    all of us who have friends and family--we should always be striving to better each other.

    May Allah keep guiding us. Ameen.

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